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Jeez.
I really don't know what to do with myself.
First a games designer, then an electrical engineer, and now a graphics designer.
I mean, I'd already planned on doing web-design in my spare time, but I've been reading, much like how I was reading about electronics.

From years 0-15 of my life, I knew nothing.
Year 16, I knew next to nothing.
Year 16.5, I knew enough to know what it is that I knew a little about.
Year 16.6, I knew enough to think that I knew something.
Year 17, I knew enough to think that I knew lots.
Year 17.137, I know enough to realise that I don't know anything at all, and it makes me really excited. I want to learn stuff, learn more, get inspiration, create, revise, rethink, redo, scrunch up, smooth out, rip out, go away, learn something else, get an idea, decide that it sucks, but spend an hour working on it anyway. But I don't have time, right now, since I'm busy with school.

But now I don't know what I want to do. I don't think I'll do graphics design at uni - I have no intention of being anything other than a freelance designer, and I don't need a fancy degree for that.

The question is now do I want to become an electrical engineer? I've lost interest in games design, and I'm not too sure about this electronics stuff. I think it's more of a hobby.

So...what? Do I just skip uni and spend four years developing my graphics skills, then? What happens in 10 years time when computers can generate beautiful, functional designs in seconds, and humans become redundant?
In fact, how do I know that anything I do won't become like that in a decade or two? We live in exponential times, and I get the feeling that whatever we do now will seem ineffectual in about a decade, once we're really established in our chosen industries. So, should we just pretend like that isn't going to happen, but be ready for it when it does? Get prepared to stop writing code, and start writing poetry, or will machines be able to do that. Will a piece of software be developed that can analyse every piece of music ever written, and write a complete Symphony in the style of Beethoven, or create a heavy metal song based on Rachmaninoff's piano concertos?
I have a nasty feeling that everything is going to go pear-shaped in the future. How are we to know how much automation is too much? How long until we become completely unnecessary?

Hehe...I went off topic. My blog, my topics.

Anyway, I guess my immediate concern is trying to balance schoolwork and web design. I need to get this site done by November, and I work sloooow.


Oh, and I discovered what a useful resource twitter is.